There’s a song I’ve heard on the radio a few times recently. I couldn’t tell you if it’s new or if they’ve been playing it for 5 years now, but it caught my attention as I was out driving the other day. The chorus begins,
‘Cause every single day, before I knew your name
I couldn’t see your face, but I prayed for you
And oh, how beautiful is that?!
I think I was about 17 when a mentor mentioned praying in anticipation of those that would enter my life, and so I started. I asked God to be molding that man I would marry, that he would be strong and faithful. And years later He answered that prayer in an unexpected and wonderful way.
And long before we even got married, I began praying for the children that would be part of our family. I prayed that they would know Jesus, that we would parent them well, that they would feel so overwhelmingly loved everyday of their lives. Recently, little E learned how to fold her hands for a bedtime prayer and at the end will enthusiastically proclaim “amen!” and I’d say we’re doing a pretty alright job as parents so far. All by the grace of God.
When I was pregnant with E, funny enough, I spent most days praying over the other children that will enter our home. I prayed for future babies to grow in my womb, that I could again experience the flutters and kicks of carrying another tiny life. I prayed for the little hearts that will come to us out of hurt and brokenness, that they will never doubt their worth, that we will care for them well, that we will fight for them always. And I prayed for those sweet kiddos’ families, that they will find healing and restoration in the power of the Holy Spirit and that they will know how much we desire for their family to be whole.
I’ve lifted up my family to my God who has such good plans, who knows my heart, who answers bold prayers, and I’ve seen His faithfulness. He is good.
My handsome man, my little E, and all the other sweet little ones that will grow up in our home, oh how greatly I longed for you, how deeply I love you, and how fervently I’ll pray for you, always.